God is on CP time.

I feel so I dunno... I'm like every emotion at one time. I'm happy, I'm annoyed, I'm upset, I'm excited, I'm depressed, I'm sad, I'm content, I'm ... wait is all of this even possible? It's like some shit out of the Twilight Zone lol. I just want to get AWAY from everything in NY. I am conviced this city is pure evil and it takes souls through a lifetime series of parties, relationships, business transactions, friendships etc. It's daunting really. It seems to take so much energy just to get through the day and to know that tomorrow you have to do it all again is frustrating. It's like you're fighting just to keep your head above water and life really shouldn't have to feel like that. I gotta get out ASAP.

I can't stand people who just wallow in self-pity. I have NEVER been the woe is me kind of person. I don't believe in helplessness. If something is wrong I fix it ASAP. If I'm knee deep in shit I don't look around and take inventory I start digging. When I'm out I can look back like DAMN I WAS IN SOME SHIT! Lol. Unfortunately everyone is not like that and it annoys me to no end. Like what the fuck is wrong with you? I think Jay-z sums up my sentiments in this line:
"Can't complain about what they ain't gon give ya that ain't gonna get you shit."
Word!! Fuck the bullshit I always get mine without the assistance of anyone.

......... okay I'm finished ranting. I just had to get that out!!

Don't you hate when blessings come at the wrong time? When things you prayed and prayed for appear when you no longer need/want them. A lot of people say God delivers blessings when HE believes you need them not when you want them but in my opinion his timetable is all jacked up. I am conviced God is on CP time. I mean it's cool with me but I'm just saying it's really annoying because it makes me have to face decisions that I really don't want to make. My life is never good vs bad. It's always GOOD VS. GREAT or BAD VS FUCKED UP. I'm always find myself faced with having to chose between the less of two evils or I'll have 2 great options and have to choose. One of those crossroad situations and they drive me out of my mind because if I chose the wrong path then I have to either find a short-cut to get to where I wanted to be or take the trip back to the crossroad and take the correct path. You see how Gods CP time really messes me up? Like I said it's cool though I guess that's what life is about. Being faced with decisions and trying to make the best choice based on your experience and what you want to achieve in life.

What are they putting in the milk?

Yeah yeah yeah I know it's been a while since I've blogged but honestly my ownly worries have been what color to paint my nails/toes (orange/french) and what color luggage should I buy (purple). Life has been pretty perfect for me as of late and I can pretty much chock that up to a new love interest. He's great and that's all I have to say about that!

But anyway I had some pretty unpure thoughts about a 13 year old on the train this morning. Now before you start passing judgement let me tell you homeboy was taller than me with a swag that'll make Diddy jealous. Lookin like a baby Adonis. Lawd have mercy! So on the really real WHAT ARE THEY PUTTING IN THE MILK? These lil niggas walkin round lookin like Lebron and the lil girls walkin round lookin like Melyssa Ford. I swear my 10 year old niece has the body of a 25 year old with NO kids. Somethin ain't right people! They got me feelin like Mary K. Latorneu out here. Checkin IDs before I get the number and shit. Pray for me ya'll...

This time next week I will be enroute to Cancun. Oh hell ya! I'm so ready! I don't think I lost anymore weight but I gives not a fuck anymore. I'm not tryna imperss anyone I'm good with mines. I'm just tryna sip my drank, ride a few jetskis, and get a lil bronzed. If I can achieve all that it will be great success (in my Borat voice) LOLOL.

Okkk back to online shopping. I'll holla!!!!!!!!

Heaven I need a hug.

Why is it still raining? Why am I hung over at 10 AM? Whyyy whyyy whyyyy? Lord help me...

I haven't blogged in a minute so I decided to stop by and say hello. I am no position to blog right now as I nurse this lovely hangover(at my desk).

How about a picture from Bmore?

Me and the roomie

Whyyy is my head so dayum big?!

While I was typing this blog the HR lady person called me into her office to inform me they were offering me my job. Lol I have been working with my mothers temp agency for about 6 months now they are asking me to come work for the hospital. I guess it's true things never come when you want it because at one point in time I would have killed for this job now I really DO NOT WANT IT. Ugh! Why you ask? Well for one I had it all set in my mind that I would only work weekends at Bellevue this summer and have a rockin good time lmao. Goodbye to that dream. Second I really wanted to move to Bmore in August. Once again goodbye to that dream. Lastly now that I thin about I really don't see myself staying here for THAT long. I did tell them during the interview that I planned on going to law school and I dont think there are any secretary attorneys so that would give me about 5 years here tops.... GRRRRR!!! Let me stop and just be happy for myself. Fuck!

Lol tell em why you mad son!

You shouldn't throw stones if you live in a glass house.

I refuse to discuss anyone but ME (and occasionally my BFF) in my blog because um... it's MY blog wtf? But it really kills me how someone can "careless" but dedicate enough time to write an entire anecdote. I guess I'm the only one who realizes "what you eat don't make me shit. I really and truly do not give a fuck about how anyone lives their life because I don't know their struggle and they don't know mine. Damn insecurity is a hell of a drug...

Anyway Baltimore tomorrow! Hope I have oodles of fun... I'll have stories/photos for you Monday!

Booty rockin everywhere.

I NEED A BOOTY.

Not to be confused with want, I need one. I'm thinking about starting the "Buy Eve Buns Foundation" so I can get my Brazilian Butt Lift. Please do not confuse the Brazilian Butt Lift with Booty Implants (which I affectionately call Blants). I don't want this:

Lol! But I could rock with something like this:

Before

After

That right there is a happy Brazialian Butt Lift patient. They took her booty do and made it to a booty don't. I'm not tryna look like Buffy, that big booty model scene is already saturated (I'm a pioneer not a follower sorry). I'm just tryna shake somethin *in my Cam'ron voice*

So if you have an extra $10,000 laying around and you want to give the gift that keeps on giving shout me a holla. Queensbeautyqueen@gmail.com All donations are accepted! Thank you and God Bless.

Reading is Fundamental

So I went on a shopping spree at Barnes & Noble online yesterday.
Here are my pick-ups:

A Piece of Cake
Cupcake Brown
I'm so excited to read this book, I've heard so many great reviews!!

A New Earth: Awakening to your Lifes Purpose
Eckhart Tolle
This is another one I can't wait to crack open. I heard it was life changing, we'll see :)

Think and Grown Rich: A Black Choice
Dennis Paul Kimbro & Napoleon Hill
I don't know about this book... I hope it good. Someone recommended it and it was only $6.00 so what the hell?

And because I just can't stay out of the Buy 2 get the 3rd Free Bargain Bin

How to Feel Fabulous Today!
Stephanie L. Tourles
Well... who doesn't want to feel fabulous today?! Lol

Parched
Heather King
Wow! This book was calling my name. Here's the blurb:

In this moving, emotionally charged, and unflinching look at alcoholism and its
effects, lawyer and prominent National Public Radio writer and commentator
Heather King describes her twenty-year-long descent into the depths of addiction
with wit and candor. King went from a highly functioning alcoholic who managed
to maintain her grip on reality to living in the lowest of dive bars, drinking
around the clock and barely sustaining an existence. With help from the most
unexpected source, King stopped her self-destructive spiral and changed her
world for the better. This is the poignant, painfully honest, and inspirational
true story of a woman who looked into the abyss, and was able to step back from
the edge and reclaim her life on her own terms.

Nice Girls Don't Get Rich: 75 Avoidable Mistakes Women Make with Money
Lois P. Frankel, PhD.
I love the title and I can totally relate >:)

Some books I wanted but I'll pick them up on the next go round or you can buy them for me :)

Who Moved My Cheese?
Spencer Johnson M.D
I'm pretty much the best at adapting to change, I have a great outlook but I'm tired of hearing about it so I'll probably see what it's about.





Hood
Noire
I haven't read any Urban Lit in a LONG time. I did enjoy G-Spot though so I will give this a chance. Noire is a pretty good writer.

48 Laws of Power
Robert Greene & Joost Elffers
Heard it's a must have, I pretty much know the highlights of the book because friends who have read it schooled me on the things they found most important. It won't hurt to check it out myself.



The Art of War
Sun Tzu
Same as above. It's pretty much a literary staple

Here are my favorite books of all time!

The Catcher in the Rye
J.D Salinger
OMG I've read this book atleast 5 times and I'm sure I'll read it another 5 before I die. It's just one of those books that grow with you. I also love it because I can totally relate to Holden and the fact that everyone takes his situation(s) serious but him. He's also hilarious. I recommend this book... 20 million stars!!


White Oleander
Janet Fitch
Oh man! I read this book in the 4th grade for a book report (and again in the 5th for another book report lol). It was definately not written for my age group and I actually read it wayyyy before the movie (which does the book NO justice) and wayyyy before it hit Oprahs book club. Something about the way Janet tells the story just pulls you in. It's probably her descriptive language because she never goes right out and says anything. She'll elude and leave teh rest to you imagination. I think that's why I didn't like the movie as much.


Down These Mean Streets
Piri Thomas
Classic! I love memoirs...


Native Son
Richard Wright
Originally I read it for school, found it years later and read it again! I don't think I grasped the concept the first time around but the second boy did it hit me. Great book!

That's all for now over @ Eve's Reading Rainbow lol. Get cha summer read on boys & girls!

"They tell me to try and make a livin. I tell em I'm a hustler and I rather make a killin"

It's 7:00 am on Saturday and I'm on my way to work a 12 hour shift. Dedication bitches! Dedicated to the $$$ that is. Surprisingly I'm not upset about it because how else would I be spending my weekend? Sleeping and eating because I'm a lazy bitch. I might as well use my idle time for profit. Over for them weekends!

I feel like I grew-up (a little) overnight. I'm no longer hype to go to the clubs (I haven't been and haven't wanted to go since my birthday). Renee definately hit the nail on the head when she said "once you turn 21 you leave that partying everynight shit for the birds especially since we been doing this way before we were 21." Word! Don't get me wrong I still love night-life and having a good time. I'm just broadening my horizons. New states, countries, etc. LMAO @ me tryna get Hollywood. Chillay chill! But word I'm good on the NYC club scene til they show me something I haven't seen and that's HARD cause I definately seen a lot smh.